Think that my blogging's getting more irregular. 1.5 weeks more to CTs and i haven really done anything constructive. stress arh. my dad was telling me abt university choices and all that and how he cannot afford to send me overseas to study...haiz so many things to think abt. shall see what the sea and sun in maldives tell me. talk abt divinity.

Today's O levels results day. cat high supposedly did quite well. 10.1 or is it 10.5? haha we didnt even come close lah haha. but it's good, at least they improved and there was one with 10 A1s. Kudos to him. Perhaps this jus shows that 2003 isnt that good compared to 2004 after all haha. What a slap in the face. who cares, at least we improved. hopefully this can stay. We got the ends but do they really care about the means? Nowadays i can recognise cat high ppl from afar, esp the PB and SC ones. The tie's not very impressive but ewww. bleah haha is that the kind of image they are aiming for? thank god im out.

Still, there are ppl who didnt do that well. some cant return to the JCs of their choice. feel kinda sad, like last yr when we knew that ppl were going to leave for supposedly better places or couldnt return. PW results during A level release haha dunno wad to sae. PW...yuckS! after dun get A1 haha i cant imagine the expressions on their faces....haiz.

so many weeks in school and there's really nothing to blog abt. i guess im getting complacent with routine. School only seems particularly bad on tues, 10 hrs on end. bleah. sale of election forms are so good that i shudder at the thought of the duration of the interviews. and this is only the first period of SC application...i wonder if this year's mechanism would make it any better?

AJ funfair was ermmm quite contained. saw many AJ ppl ard but v little ppl from elsewhere. perhaps all went for SA one. Shldnt be on the same day la. bad timing. Decided to give SA a miss since it was SO out of the way. and i missed council dinner. cos i had to come home to mug for CTs. They are like only 2 weeks away for me, 3 weeks for other excos and 4 weeks for the rest. JC2 is SOOOOOoooo fast.

Leaving for maldives in 2 weeks' time. havent really prepared anything but being in mindless logistics, i jus have to ensure all our stuff reach there safe and sound. that equates to manual labour but at least it'll take your mind of other things. Heard a lot of sad things from mr sim during our first briefing, like how the islanders would pay thru their noses so that we can have like bread and eggs daily while they themselves rarely get to eat such stuff. and how last yr's gp would bathe till the islanders would have to ration drinking water. it's kind of appalling and sad to hear all this. like it affirmed my decision to go to the maldives. jus hope i dun like give up cos it's too hard or something. wad a shaaaame.

You know, sometimes, it's always good to go out with the EL ppl. You can say what you really want and others won't judge you. You can speak at the top of your voice and dramatise your lives for others to see and the rest wont really care. It's fun to be uninhibited again. Who cares abt the public's opinion of another stranger on the streets? Not like in school when you KNOW that you are being watched. Sometimes, i jus couldnt care less. haha. oops not supposed to but yada yada yada. Sometimes, i just want be my obnoxious self, so let me be! haha. BLEAH!

"Shall we dance" is a nice show. Maebe it's the choreography but maebe it's the little bits of life that's embedded in the plot here and there. Wonder y ppl say that it's a flop show leh? haha.

New Year's over, school was ok and 4 more weeks to common tests. Dont think i got the time to study with the Maldives trip coming and all. blah. shall jus do my best. At least bio got no DNA and stuff liddat. haha

Bleah..a week at schoool. cant help it really but school's slowly taking its toll on me, especially when everyday u go home to more chem and math. pls la give us a break (hope u are reading this), arent we going just a tad too fast? not enough time to consolidate wad we learnt. And i guess i got pretty startled at being arrowed for OB Sabah and OCIP to Maldives. Wont die from going so guess i'll be visiting these 2 places by prelims 2005. About 40 weeks to A levels, i can start feeling the stress already, especially when i know that there's so much that i promised myself i would do but havent done. Need to get more focussed, like real focussed. Talk abt sharp GP essays. Apparently long sentences are a problem. Too much clutter they say haha and GP assignments that have caught up with technology and are no longer ink-and-pulp bound. Students beware: blogspots turned homework!!

Another thing abt school is that students are dying to be right. they jus cant be heard at all. Makes me feel stupid to even try anything farnie. Prim-and-proper's the word. Everyone wants to be good and successful and what not la but arent those like arbitrary? really cannot say how much i HATE the (pardon the cliches) pindrop silence everytime the teacher asks a question. Cant say that im not guilty of such a crime but still, it's jus social conditioning to be on the right side of the line. WHen will things get interesting?!?

I realised that you dont really get a chance to go out in College. Everyone's jus too busy (CCA and wadever else is on other people's agenda). But it's not like the school's cutting us a break. What happened to our fri CNY holidays? all the tutors are like, "See you next friday." Who wants to be in school on a pleasant friday morning!?

Went back for SJAB today. The usual stuff la haha but still, cant wait for the current committee to step down then can start afresh. Heck the FA comp, since the teams got some Pierce person to train the. The actual competition shall speak for itself. hmmph. Saw camillus when i was about to leave, haha. Found out alot abt him and the cat high ppl at VJ and how there was a pestilence at J8, with a certain premier JC (pJC) in the bishan area. How sad lah, most of the fun CH peepz went over to the premier JC (pJC) in the east area. but nvm, we shall make do with what we have, as always. haha am i too easily contented? Maebe it's jus the "no-right-to-impose-will-upon-one-another" thing, haha. Chatted till abt 2340h. dunno what we talked abt though, although part of it was spent on zhi yong's upcoming elections in VJ. haha elections was so long ago and it was probably the more fun days of SC life. haiz..time passes quickly. less than 52 weeks to NS, 40 weeks to the big "A"s, 15 weeks to the handover and less than 1 week to do all the HW. siannnz. i need that sushi at sakae soon....:D