been some time since i blogged. needed to come to terms with reality and have closure for some things. the past wk was really slack in ATI so it was rather relaxed. i also booked out for my award ceremony at MacRitchie Reservoir. the setting sun amidst rippling waters and luxuriant greenery was such a great view (compared to dusty vehicle sheds and dilapidated buildings). why cant training always be like that. now that SOC's coming up, everything's gonna change. and STUPID STUPID potassium hydroxide wants us to retake IPPT. i feel penalised for trying my best.

watched lake house with wx yest and met mos for dinner at er this rip-off at food republic. it was...relaxing and i enjoyed both sessions. it feels like i have not done alot of things for a long time. i hope my off-in-lieu will be put to gd use the coming mon. maebe i shld visit NJ and CHS. now tt national day's coming up there seems to be a hive of activity everywhere. with so many ppl involved in prep for tt, im apparently v free ard here. until those ppl get reimbursed with their offs that is.

been blog-surfing for these 2 days and surprisingly, i found a lot of angst and disillusionment. hmm maebe it's that time of the yr again, where things do not go as expected. but we've all been thru it so it's our juniors' turn this time rd. an endless(vicious?) cycle perhaps but once again they'll all pull thru' and it'll not seem like a big deal after all. to all JC2s, perservere and it will all pay off. dare to dream and not let others judgment bring u down, cos "who are (they) to judge you?".

and the next thing i know, im gonna let NS bring me down again. oh the irony.

2 weeks of stayign at SGC is NOT GOOD for the soul, body and mind. walter got a tad too cranky. have been having cravings for food again lately but then wad's new. Cookhouse good has reached an all time low - it was so much better at sispec and BMT la. oh well. and vocation training is coming to an end, which will rouse the demons of STW from their slp. No more sergeant Linus! and bernard was haranguing him to recommend us to be instructors, which is clearly a musT! but then all he had was a sheepish smile and "it all depends on ur PC" kinda mantra. oh well, Godbless trainees! and SOC training doesnt look appetising in one bit, not when we have to carry extra load when the whole idea of SOC is to cross obstacles, which are fairly lethal.

That's enough of rambling for now. but it's all i felt in the past week. I have successfully completed my transformation into a zombie!