It was a short week. And yet there's so much unhappiness. especially when some try not do their jobs and pretend that no one will find out. like an ostrich. or try to escape from reality or cannot prioritise. when will i get out of such........swamps. and when i find out, i get depression. you read correct. d-e-p-r-e-s-s-i-o-n. and i start to think of evil things. :D and then i think of those who don't deserve it but they are really just a minority. 1-for-all and all-for-1.

some things and people just make my day but SOME things and people... cause it to sour just as quickly. i think im getting too emotional too easily. and it's not very good when ally mcbeal-esque situations start invading my mind. definitely not desirable but sometimes, that's what some people deserve, alright.

sometimes i wished i had a group of KOS-MOSes. so that i dont have to bother explaining or trying to enforce basic, routine stuff to reluctant, disillusioned, disgruntled, misguided, self-denying sloths who sleep their lives away. so that i can not suffer wide fluctuations in mental waves, hormonal levels and nervous impulses. i shall try to be more imprevious to such afflictions. but im human too. i can only try to be positive.

The world is full of love, warmth and everything good. all of it just eludes a particular corner of SGC. =)

Course has ended. This respite from the stifling reaches of coyline was indeed refreshing. and i enjoyed knowing the people that ive met from 41 and ati... dont think i'll have much chance of working or seeing them in the near future. oh wells, life is such a bitch. at least i still have those in coyline to torment haha wadever.

At World's End was so-so. perhaps that is becos i didnt catch both prequels, but at least i could make out the plot and the scenes were not too bad. aome parts were pretty witty too. Just couldnt understand why Becket(is that how we spell it?) didnt fire the cannons in the end.....THe same cant be said for born into brothels, where the footage was somewhat raw and rather disjoint. perhaps that's becos it's a documentary but still, i feel that it's highly overrated. i cant see how, after all zana had done to help the children get into boarding school, only 1 choose to remain and the other 2 choose to run away. and some were not even allowed to go. How utterly un-inspiring and down-lifting. Awareness it has raised, but along with it depression and pessimism more than inspiration and courage. i didnt get it. perhaps ive become...insensitive?

Next would be Infamous and Shrek 3. Failed to convince ppl to watch the former and the latter is yet to be released. Feeling absolutely bored between shows. need to occupy myself with something. life is somewhat...bland.

The last week in camp must have been the most relaxed for the last 7 months. Time flies when you are having fun. or should i say, when im a trainee cos everything has been planned nicely for me and the plan rarely changes. No need to worry about this that and all the other things in coy line. and i can relax after office hours, which is most of the time after dinner, save tests and night lectures. Though i do feel kinda bad that i cant help in certain things when im away....but i cant be sorry for all the evil in the world. HAA.

Cant take my eyes off You

You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.
You'd be like Heaven to touch.
I wanna hold you so much.
At long last love has arrived
And I thank God I'm alive.
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.

Pardon the way that I stare.
There's nothing else to compare.
The sight of you leaves me weak.
There are no words left to speak,
But if you feel like I feel,
Please let me know that it's real.
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.

I love you, baby,
And if it's quite alright,
I need you, baby,
To warm a lonely night.
I love you, baby.
Trust in me when I say:
Oh, pretty baby,
Don't bring me down, I pray.
Oh, pretty baby, now that I found you, stay
And let me love you, baby.
Let me love you.

reminds me of a live performance by daniel waaaay back. :D Kinda summarises the past week for me hehe. but it wont be here to stay. ahwells. now im afraid i cant adjust back to hectic schedules. and stage 1 lurks at the back of my mind...

2nd lion specialist birthday for the month and probably the 2nd this year. all of us are young and naive and easily bullied. by creatures. that's for sure. HAHA. it's a love-hate relationship.

Priceless was a pretty witty show. first time i watched something in french and having only subtitles to rely on was pretty irksome, but i still enjoyed it. and i enjoyed having carl's jr with bernie, who among many other things, suggested that i extend ORD to go to wallaby with him. 1 more R&R. sounds not too bad. and that we should emphatise with the saf personnel in taiwan who had planes hurtling towards them. :( and i enjoyed walking around the shops at VIvo looking at all the things that i couldnt afford. and thankfully it was before "priceless". and i enjoyed having great porridge and tim sum at maxwell. and i enjoyed piquing mark's curiosity about something that he shouldnt really know but wants to know and getting him all peeved. but the night ended too shortly. should have just gone for a drink as suggested but i was too lazy and warm and whatnot. :(

i cant do all these tmr again becos i have to rtu and course starts on mon.... and no one will want to do these things on a book-in mothers' day. wadever. over-hyped commercial holidays. and L.C.HEW smsed me a mothers' day msg. i dont know what to say.

The last week has been absolutely...slack. range, recce, slack slack slack. and several clandestine ops at night. felt kinda bad leaving the "kids" behind but i've concluded that i shouldnt bother so much cos it's not worth it. but that has left my tired and groggy for many days. i endeavour to stay more alert and squeeze in more things during working hours.

the calm before the storm. listening to him rattle on and on about next 2 wk's program, im suddenly glad that im on course. cept that i have to come back at night for remedial...:(

and i mus remind myself not to bother changing duties for other people anymore, if they cannot find their own replacements. it's like im bringing it upon myself. eternal punishment - repent and atone for you sins. bribery makes the world go round. pt proven: 人之初，性本贱. absolutely abysmal. i hope history doesnt repeat itself.

Stunning revelations... All the best to the Big Cats next week(s). hehe.

tired. but anything beats camp. really.

i keep letting the slightest of things spoil my day. whatever. certain people should just vanish from the face of the earth.

sometimes, no matter how much i try, i am unable to get people to do things. "duty" has to be redefined; it is now an "incentivised" word. oh well. honour and obligations cannot withstand the onslaught of freedom and escapism. we live in a world where "...convictions crumble upon the slightest provocation." some people just make things look so simple. sometimes, i wish i didnt stick to some ideals and principles - everthing-and-anything-goes would be much easier. sometimes, i wish that emotions and relationships are not-existent - they are transient anyway.

im bored. i dont think there's that much admin to do tmr. need to look for more things to do.