muse hasnt been visiting lately. or maebe nothing has been provocative enough to warrant an entry. or perhaps i was just too lazy. wadever.

been so caught up with work lately that it's almost like im studying for MY a levels. i wish i were as drilled as then. kinda miss the frenzy of knowing everything at your fingertips when attempting drill questions and still getting stuck at some. :D but no, im getting stuck at every other question. now i truly question what i did back then. cant even solve for general solution to trigonometric identities. :(

i wonder if this will be life as we noe it. stick to a routine and life = job, punctuated by the highs and lows of work. i believe in what ms chua said abt work being a means to life and not an end in itself. and i think it's a bonus if work is fulfillng. so till then, work shall be a challenge and exploration till i can see where i really want to be. like ps said, so what if i win the rat race? i will still be just a rat. haha. and life is an equation to be solved by you-know-who. so till then, till "financial independence" is attained. :D

what we study really shouldnt have a great impact on future careers, unless it's a profession, or should it? does it then mean that people who dont do medicine, law, engineering, accountancy and the like are doomed to flounder in limbo? it is appalling how people narrow themselves to what they choose to major in :( there's really no end to the human penchant for classification and labels, which once stuck are exTREMEly stubborn.



read in the papers abt ppl wanting the minister to step down for mas selamat's escape. hmm brainless idiots. by that logic, when a student commits suicide, the teachers and parents shall be sacked and the parents jailed. when a mistake is committed, it's not so much about who should bear the responsibiity but how ameliorative action can be taken and what lessons are learnt. deal with it. by stepping down, it's actually more of an easy way out. after all, once stepping down, it's no longer his business isnt it? that being said, when it comes to graft and what not, i'd strongly recommend a quick exit on top of having to face the legal consequences:)

and doctors who rip their patients off? simply unethical. worse than letting a million mas selamats lose. first of all, they are profiteering from someone else's malady, kinda like gloating over other's misfortune. second of all, being in a more informed position, every conscious act of including unnecessary and more exorbitant but less effective treatment SERIOUSLY undermines the integrity of the profession as a whole. they should be barred from practising!!! ok it's a bit extreme but i kinda believe in sacrificial lambs. if it's the money, whatever did they take up medicine for in the first place? go into banking! years and years of toil and torture to attain that specialist status doesnt give them the rite to overcharge or spawn a never-ending vicious cycle. more regulation is it and the health ministry shouldnt be afraid to make unpopular decisions. utilisation of medisave in JB should give some high and mighty sputum a reality check. and the more ethical healers should exert some positive influence and pressure on those who have strayed :(