It was so boring today to stay at home and really do nothing at all. haiz. shld have done other stuff but i guess i was jus too lazy to get out of the house. SF yesterday seemed to go quite well. It was more smooth than anything, other than the initial part, when wad everyone wanted to do was to wait for their friends or take photos. THe last thing they wanted to do mus have been to enter the ballroom. maebe it happens every yr who noes? haha. but i guess the event itself was a standard dinner. Nothing very extravagant or wad, jus a good old dinner with ppl all dressed up and looking different. i suppose it's something standard. even raphael ong looked different. more diff than 2 yrs ago. Wouldnt expect them to wear grey for some time. and kudos to SFCP for pulling it off so well. i think it was quite well received and qutie touching. too bad nobody got it down on tape? i wonder if any of the seniors still think of whether they have made the rite choice to go to NJ. or maebe to JC. what would we really think at the end of this 2 yrs? would we still be comparing to sec sch? or like how are we going separate ways? haha. i dont know!

Gamesfest tml and CIA meeting. doesnt sound as bad as rotting away at home.... sometimes u jus cant stand ppl grousing away and going on and on and on. going on abt the same thing. EXACTLY the SAME words for YEARS on end. it's jus irritating i wish i could bash the person's head. or lock the person away in the other corner of the world. and that's not the worst part, the worst part is wallowing in self-pity, always hoping that providence is jus round the corner and would "change their fate". Maebe it's too much TV or maebe it's jus lousy superstition. But i jus HATE it to hear such stuff. y cant u jus pick urself up and depend on urself and not hope against hope that something out there would be helping out? why mus u complain of ur job when there are so many ppl jobless out there?? why mus u complain of life when there are millions more unfortunate ppl out there in the world? why? is it cos im jus too young to understand or am i being too harsh on myself? It's been for 5 yrs and most likely will be for 5 yrs. and everyday i hate u more and more. it's not that other things that u do dont matter, but sometimes it's jus getting harder and harder, to find stuff to forget everything. sometimes, indifference is jus the best.