Been a really hectic week. still trying to find a balance btw managing ppl, doing work and maintaining vehicle. not to mention to get a gd feel of my superiors. but i dun feel as overwhelmed as before so maebe tt's a gd thing but perhaps it's jus the calm before the storm. sick and tired of 20 hr shifts that i have to keep everyday. hopefully my new clerks get appointed soon then we can train them to do some of the work for us.

What the SAF classify as 'men' are really strange. they can range from the motivated to the uninterested. pretty good to you at times and really nasty the next instant. really look forward to working with them. is this what ppl refer to as NS exposes u to ppl from different stratas of society? hmm..unintentionally made a rather stereotypical comment and i think it offended one of them...it was really really not meant to insult him but...i guess that im not that impervious to social conditioning. really still feel quite bad abt it. oh well, shall be more conscious abt it in the future.

One of my coy PCs said that officers never have low morale, and we all know that it cannot be further from the truth. looking at how the tank PC ran the show for Bn zeroing on fri. made my heart bleed for him. detailing too, cos each coy wanted their own way of doing things. absolutely no respect for conducting coy. tsktsk. seems like we are still far from being anything haha. for those who are commissioning soon, esp the AOCC, 42 is waiting for you, right in the middle of standby!!! and all eyes will be on you. HAH! :)

specialists are somewhere in between, a chameleon of sorts that changes to fit the situation that suits them best. officers around? let them deal with it or do the right thing. extras dont go down well with many of us. no one looking? jus dun get caught. i guess it's something that's prevalent in not only the saf but many other places as well. disillusioned and perhaps cynical, what can we possilby do with this kind of attitude. but it seems to serve the current system well and i guess it'll be status quo until the next big thing comes along.