Outfield is both most relaxing and taxing. relaxing in the sense that i do not have to deal with the neverending admin. taxing becos i have to be ultra proficient in everything and control with an iron fist - traits which are definitely not me. not to mention fatigue, i (and im sure 99.9% of the other specs) had no clue whatsoever on what was going on. delay = trading space for time. easy to say but the steps behind it is rather complicated for me simple mind. i guess the gd thing abt outfield is that i no longer have to perform dismounted roles, but then there's natural camo to worry abt, drats...

I think im at a pt which will determine whether i can maaage the platoon in the future. jus last friday after turn-ops parade (most mortifying moment in my NS life), someone left the Coax in the lobby and went to sleep. claimed that someone else would look after. wth. isnt it always the case that u clean and send in the arms? nvm that the weapon was STILL dirty, he must have been very responsible to leave things like that lying ard. and now doh wants him to be confined. what to do? what to do? i guess a little talk after RO is the order of the day... and we are on standby this week, omg what will i do if they go do something stupid? someone save me...